when there are two "new members" in a thread (both registered today), you know it's controversial.
Yeah, the fact that i had to make an account after years of browsing XPOff and TwinkInfo just to give you a heads up on why i think you're a detriment to whatever team you are, and your make-up stories about how you are owning every single class except warriors should give you pause.
The fact that every single experienced Holy Pally already told you that your spec is not feasible should give you pause. The fact that experienced players from the forum already played with you and mentioned
multiple times that you are NOT contributing to absolutely anything except "vrooooooooooooooom" should give you pause.
Now. I'm not going to chastise you for playing your way. WoW is honestly a really dogshit game. You shouldn't be penalized for having fun. But the fact is that you have a team, and the team is counting on you.
You are not a tank. You will NEVER be a tank. You are queueing as a healer and people expect from you. Play your quirky builds as long as they work.
Stop constesting reality. This is a number's game. This game is not Lovecraftian mistery. People figure out the game on a daily basis, and way more competent people than you have figured out that the most optimal way to play a holy paladin is to play it as a defensive cleric, not like a doped-up gorilla.
Your problem is not being controversial. Your problem is being delusional and forcing other players to deal with it.